let's talk about ***

so here's the deal: for some reason i felt like i had the "umph" to write a blog at 11:48pm on a thursday night. no idea why. no idea what is on my mind, but i just decided to write. so here it is. i hope it's a success....

okay, i got news yesterday or the day before of something that really bothered me. i don't necessarily have to say what it is to the entire blogging world. it just really bothered me. that's really all the background a person needs. oh and i found out a day or two ago. so we're gonna call this news, umm, let's call it ***. i think that'll make it easier to type about.

so, i heard about *** - let's say two days ago, and i didn't really think anything of it. i actually just accepted it, because things like *** have become the norm lately, and honestly, nothing really surprises me anymore. a couple of days went by. then it really hit me this morning, and i was seriously upset with ***. i don't know what emotion i'd say i used, but it was one that hadn't been used in awhile that's for sure. mad, angry, upset - things like that come to mind at first, but there was a little bit of hurt in there too.

anyway, *** made me start thinking about friendships and what a friendship actually is. what qualifies a relationship between two human beings a friendship? i seriously thought about it, and i've decided that my connotation of a friendship could be defined by the internet. facebook more specifically or myspace. i think a friend would be anyone on my friends list on facebook. of course there are those people who aren't on facebook, but the point is, would you add that person as a friend on facebook? if so, in my opinion, that's a friendship.

now, there are different levels of friendship that go beyond facebook of course. there are the types of friends that i went to high school with. i give them a friendly hello when i see them and move on. there are the types of friends that i was close to in high school, but since college we have drifted apart. i give them a more friendly hello, and perhaps catch up a little bit and move on. there are the types of friends that i went to college with. i probably am even more friendly with these friends, catching up, possibly planning on seeing each other soon at a party or something. then there are the types of friends i met at various jobs. i give them a friendly hello, catch up a little bit and move on. then there are the types of friends that are my family. perhaps that greatest friendship of all. and of course there are the types of friends that get the title "best friends". i can tell them anything, i can expect them to be able to tell me anything, i can spend hours talking about nothing with them, and i can laugh constantly with them.

i'm sure there are other types of friends, but you get the picture. in thinking about ***, i came to the conclusion that friendships are way too difficult for me to understand. in a realtionship such as a friendship, how does a person know what type of friend they are considered? in friendship ab, does person a consider person b to be the same type of friend person b considers person a to be? i know, that was tough, but hang in there. especially in the "best" friendship. people drift apart, i know. it's natural. times change. people change. but what is the defining point? how do you know when you have gone from being considered a "best" friend to just a friend from wherever? is it obvious? do both person a and person b change the type of friend they consider the other to be at the same time? what happens when one leaves the other behind? they're still there thinking everything is normal, and you're done. moved on.

that's all i could come to the conclusion of with the case of ***. here i am. i know everything will probably - no, it won't ever be completely normal again, but i'm still here, and i guess you're done. moved on? i don't know. i've never had to deal with something like *** before.

because i'm still here, confused as hell, i feel like i want to get mad and demand answers, but then i come to my senses for a little bit. you've moved on. what's the point in being mad? why cause a huge fuss? i just really want to know, what was the "defining point"? what caused ***? things like it have been happening for months now, and *** was just too much for me. i don't know why it was too much - actually, i feel like i do know why....because i don't understand it. at all.

well, i wasn't expecting that type of an entry, but i'm satisfied with it. if it's just way too confusing for you, join the club....oh boy i'm tired now.


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Cameron

the sun will come out tomorrow

first of all, i apologize to all of my anonymous blog followers for being a horrible blogger, but you see, i'm just too busy! however, i managed to squeeze time in this past weekend to paint a canvas! i'm very proud of it, and i thought you all would like to see.....

i took two pictures, and then i couldn't decide which one was better...

so, there you go! that's the canvas! i've got to get back to my busy schedule!

maybe i'll write more later. again, thank you to all of those loyal fans who are sticking with me through this busy, busy time.

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Cameron

Happy Birthday!

I'm back, and wow, is there a lot I have to talk about! This past Monday and Tuesday were my grandparents' birthdays.We had a surprise party for them at our house on the Saturday before. Exciting, right? AND, it was a themed party! Oh, I was in heaven! haha Seriously, I love a themed party! The surprise party was a luau. Fun, huh? A luau in November is very fun because you get to have bright colors with a purpose, but it is very VERY hard to find decorations this time of year. However, as you can see, I got a few decorations. Unfortunately the theme was only celebrated by those at the party my age and younger. The others (except for a few) were confused I'm sure as to why the party was themed in such a way. I just thought a luau was fun, and they're boring. ha Kidding, but kind of. I did force guests to get leid though. They enjoyed that part. Who wouldn't?

I made this banner to hang in the kitchen. It is seriously so cool. I

know you're jealous. That's understandable.I was the camera that took the picture of the surprise. Jamie had

the camera that took the picture of Mommy Roxy and Pop (my

grandma and grandpa), and unfortunately I haven't gotten a copy

of that one yet. This is the surprise. I was crouching in a corner,

and it was dark up until the moment I took the picture so I

couldn't see what I was doing. It's not the best, but you can see a

few of the decorations. Plus, look at the excitement on those

faces! haThey were surprised! Well, Mommy Roxy was for

sure. I'm not sure Pop knew what had happened yet....and the hula dancers were so happy to be there dancing on the

table.Pop and Coach Conrad have been best

friends since high school! I think it's so cool

that they're still friends. Pop was really

excited to see him!Mommy Roxy was really pleased with the

decorations, and my mom was really pleased that the

planning was finally over!Pop and Granny (his mom).Chelsea, Jamie and Melanie were all happy to have gotten leid!Jessica and me.Chelsea performed a little. I wanted to make sure

to get a picture with her looking at me. Look at

her! That's talent!The couch was a popular place during the party...at least it was

for the group I was hanging with. Here are Jamie, my mom and

Jessica imagining they're relaxing in Hawaii.Melanie thought this picture was just SO funny. I don't get it still.

Maybe she has a skewed view of things because she deals with

what 3rd graders think is funny every day. Who knows?The food wasn't luau themed, but it was enjoyable. As you can see

the centerpiece conveniently has a luau feel.Ethan's a freak, but the parasol toothpicks and straws were a big

hit.The funniest picture of Jamie! hahaha "Drink it

down!"We just couldn't get off of the couch!Logan was so tired after the festivities!

After everyone left, my aunt and uncle were still here. We were just hanging out, drinking and talking. My dad decided that we needed to open one more bottle of wine, so he did. I drank beer all night long. He was drinking beer then he went to wine, and he was planning on going to crown, until tragedy struck. He really wanted me to have a glass of wine. I don't know why. I like wine, and I guess he just wanted to fix a drink. Anyway, he poured me a glass of wine. The whole time he was being funny. I mean, you have to understand that he had had a lot to drink. Once he poured the wine, no one really knows what happened, but he said he was trying to "act like he was drunk". Well, he didn't have to try hard. He was trying to pass me the glass, but before he did, he was gonna hit the counter. His hand ended up hitting the edge of the glass.

The glass landed in the bowl in front of him, as you can see, while

all of the wine except for what you can see went flying across the

living room.It was the funniest thing I've seen in a while.hahaha.My mom was so mad at him, which made it funnier.Just understand that it was hilarious!And fortunately, all of the wine came out!So, all is well!

I didn't do the best job of taking pictures of decorations, but I was so stressed leading up to the surprise that it was all just a blur. You have to understand that I was in charge of organizing everyone. Telling them where to go, deciding when it would be necessary to turn the lights off, etc. Oh it was nerve racking (I'm not sure if that's the correct spelling).

A few shots of the streamers in the kitchen.The foyer bathroom was decorated as well, which

was a big hit among party-goers.Even the bathroom ceiling was decorated.There was a red helium balloon tied to the handle,

but it had deflated a lot by the time I took this

picture. You can see it down there. So, that was

exciting.

So, that's the surprise party! It was so much fun! One thing you may find hard to believe....I don't know how old either of them are! I know, sad, but it wasn't discussed. I asked my dad, and we decided that Pop is like 73 and Mommy Roxy is 68 or 69. If anyone is wondering, they are around 68 and 73. Just, FYI.

Anyway, the surprise was a success!

I'll be back with more, but I think this blog is way to long. So, I'm taking a break.

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Cameron

You really can't ever know what may happen.

Well, the day is finally here! The campaign that seemed to last forever is finally ending! I have never liked politics, so I hope you don't get the impression that my excitement stems from the history that will be made this evening. No, that's not it. Sure, yay, history is going to be made, but unfortunately I've arrived at the point of not being able to care less. The campaigns on both sides have just become a matter of saying bad things about the other candidate. Sure, that's part of politics, but this campaign is nothing but that. I'm just tired of it. It's all just so negative, and I could go on for way too long about how annoyed I am. The point is, I'm just so excited it's going to be over!

Get out and vote if you haven't already!

On a slightly lighter note, my weekend was good! It wasn't the most eventful, but there were some highlights that I would like to share. I'm still trying to wake up early every morning, and I did really good all weekend!

On Friday, I woke up at 7am! Good, huh? I know. I had to take my sister to school that morning. She had to go get something from one of her teachers, and then I had to bring it to my mom. Just if you were wondering why I had to take her. Okay, it was Halloween, and I thought it was funny to keep telling Chelsea to be careful because it was Halloween and "you never know what may happen." Anyway, I was saying it to everything that happened, and I thought it was just SO funny! haha I still do kind of. On my way to the elementary school to meet my mom I got pulled over by one of the school cops! I didn't get a ticket, so it turned out being funny. I mean, right? It was Halloween! You never know what may happen!

Friday night was of course focused around trick-or-treating for most people, but there were a lot of people at the football game too of course. My family was one that went to the game in Stafford, so there was no trick-or-treating at my house. There hasn't been trick-or-treating at my house in a few years though. My dad gets too irritated with the older kids that don't dress up and come asking for treats in their pillow cases. Plus, our house is located in seriously the most popular place in all of Needville. It's across the street from the elementary school and the road is a wide road because of the car rider line at the end of each day. So anyway, there are just so many people, and my dad is very irritable about it. I really like it, but I unfortunately don't make the decisions.

Jessica's family and I went to her aunt's house to eat chili and then pass out candy to trick-or-treaters. It was a lot of fun, and I really like chili, so I enjoyed it. There weren't too many trick-or-treaters. Jessica's aunt lives in a smaller neighborhood away from the majority of houses in town, so most trick-or-treaters that came were friends of theirs' or kids from the neighborhood.

Okay enough about that, here's the good stuff: the football game gossip! The one game Jess and I chose to skip was the game that will be remembered for a long time! Chelsea didn't go to the game either, but you know, being in high school, gossip spreads fast. She found out Friday night, but she spent the night at a friend's house, so I didn't hear about it until Saturday morning (I was asleep when my mom and dad got home). I bet the suspense is killing you!

Well, when I woke up Saturday morning at 8am I got in the shower. When I got out, Chelsea had gotten home, and she was grouchy. She's not a morning person. She said in a mumbly voice, "Did you hear about the cheerleaders?" I don't know why, but I got nervous. My first thought was something bad like, their bus had a wreck or something. I said, "No. Do I want to?" Again, she's grouchy, so she said, "I don't know" (with a roll of the eyes and heavy breathing). haha I said, "Is it sad? Am I going to cry?" ahahahaha I don't know why I said that, but I really did. She got really tired of the game I was playing with her and said, "They were caught with alcohol in their water bottles."

Yep! Seven of the twelve cheerleaders were drinking Jim Beam during the game. We, as a town, are just so proud! You never know what may happen, huh?!? Supposedly (remember, we're going off of gossip here), one of the girls had the whole bottle of Jim in her bag! I mean, how stupid are you? It's so funny to me that they just couldn't wait until after the game. Oh, and of course it was on the news. The news loves to broadcast what losers we are here. It's so embarrassing really.

Believe me, the punishment is a big deal right now. All seven were given MIPs. Plus, they are in ISS until the end of this week (that has something to do with six weeks tests going on this week) and starting Monday they will be in alternative school for 120 days. That means they'll be in A-school until the last weeks of school most likely (I think it leaves like 20 days of school). Some people think the punishment isn't hard enough, others think it's too much. Personally, I don't really have an opinion. I definitely think they're gonna need punishment though, and if the handbook (the handbook is a big deal here) says 120 days is the punishment for having alcohol on campus or at a school related activity, then that's what should happen. What do y'all think?

So, all of that happened on Friday. The rest of the weekend was good, but nothing too exciting. I mean what can beat high school cheerleaders drinking at a football game! On Saturday, Jessica and I took Chelsea shopping, and on Sunday Jessica and I went to Melanie's house to paint a table. The table turned out SO good! I'm going to try to get Melanie to email me a picture of it, so I can share it with all of you! I mean, it's really good! I'm very proud of it.

Alright, that's all I have. I know, random post, but I didn't have much to talk about. Hopefully I'll be subbing by the end of the week, so that should give me something to talk about later.

Y'all get out there and vote! You've still got two hours. I mean, after all, you really can't ever know what may happen!!!

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Cameron

Maybe I'll take up reading.

First things first. I woke up at 8:15 this morning! I am so proud of myself! I'm starting this new thing where I wake up early every morning. Yesterday was such a golden day, and I was really, umm, bummed (if you will) when I finally rolled out of bed at 11am. Anyway, I'm really excited about it! I'll let you know how it goes.

Just a few tid bits of information for you to take and ponder. Judge me if you will. Right now The View is on. I'm not really listening, but I just happened to look up to see the guy from Entourage (I think his name is Jeremy Piven) sitting on the couch wearing a hat. It's one of those dapper hats, you know, Justin Timberlake wears them a lot. Anyway, he's wearing the hat, and just so you know, hats being worn inside really bothers me. I don't know why, I think it just looks rude. Especially when it's on The View or at an elementary school program (there was a guy wearing the biggest, most obnoxious cowboy hat at the last third grade program I went to - it was so retarded). The hat was originally for the sun. There's no sun inside. My main thing is, are you just such an awesome cowboy or Dapper Dan to where you need the hat all of the time? Take the hat off, and I think you look like a much more friendly, personable person. That's all.

Oh, one more thing. It also bothers me when girls where hats at sporting events or events in general where the National Anthem is sang/sung (whatever), and the girls for some reason don't have to take their hats off. Personally, I think everyone should remove their caps, but for some reason people think guys are the only ones required to show respect. Okay, I don't know where that came from, but I'm glad it was said.

I found this picture of this desk with a stack of magazines as one of the legs this morning.

I don't necessarily like the magazines, but I think real books would look cool. In college, my roommate's grandma was really into decorating our apartment, and she gave us this entertainment center that had all of these books that she got for really cheap from Half Price Books or something. I think books like that would look cool.

Speaking of books, there's a book that was Urban Outfitters last year called Allison Jackson: Confidential that I really wanted. I decided I'm going to put it on my Christmas list for this year.That's it there, well, you probably got that. The book is pictures of what look like celebrities doing what the majority would imagine to happen behind closed doors. None of the pictures are actually of celebrities, but they are pictures of people who look like them! I don't know why I think it's so cool, but I do. I found some pictures on the internet from the book.

Well, that's the book. You're interested too I'm sure. You really need to see it in person to appreciate it I think.

It took me a really long time to find the book today, and in my search I found 2 more books to add to my list! Well, one for sure. One of them I just think would be cool to have, but I'm not obsessed or anything.

First is this book, Cringe, from Urban Outfitters.Cringe is a compilation of real teenage diary and journal entries, letters, songs, stories, and lists - along with commentary from the now so-called grown-ups who wrote them. Cool huh? I think it sounds really interesting, so anywho, I'm adding it to my Christmas list.

The next book I found is this Cool Green Stuff book, also from Urban Outfitters.I don't really know why this caught my little eye, but it did. I just think for the right person some of the things in it are so cool. For example, this cassette belt buckle is very green! (for the right person of course)This Heineken vase-like thing is cool and of course green too! But again, the right person is required for this.Oh! One more book! Another one of my obsessions is PostSecret. I've wanted one for a long time, but I don't think I've ever asked. I don't have one PostSecret book in particular that I want. I just think it would be cool to support my obsession by paying for a book. I mean, right? Plus, it's just a cool coffee table book!

Alright, that's all I have for today. I'm getting excited for Christmas already! I'm not sure if that's a good thing. It's so far away still!

Have a good day!

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Cameron

Who knows what will come out of this...

Okay, I am finally doing this. I have nothing planned to talk about in this entry, so I guess we'll just see how it turns out! I read a lot of blogs regularly, but never did I think I would be writing one of my own! I have wanted an Etsy shop, however, ever since I found out about Etsy. I don't think I would have ever really gone through with making an Etsy shop though. I'm really just too lazy, and while I was in college I had a job that kept me out of debt. Now that I am almost 5 months out of college and still jobless, I decided that my craftiness could be my ticket out of debt! So, along with a soon-to-come Etsy shop, I have a blog! I'm really afraid that it will be a new addiction.

You have to understand, I don't do well with potential addictions. Maybe you're thinking of bad or deadly addictions, such as drug-use or sex. You wish. I would never! I'm talking about little things. Little things like being obsessed with shopping for things you can never have too many of when seriously you can go overboard.

For example, last year I got really obsessed with polos for some reason. I know, right? Weird. I mean, it's not like I just found out about them last year, but I love them! I'm actually having trouble coming up with anything else that I want for Christmas other than polos. I refuse to ask for them though. I'm trying to quit! Okay, now I wish! Oh! Another addiction of mine would be these puma flip-flops!

I know, I know, they're just flip-flops, but I really love them! I have like four pair! There's no need for that many of one shoe. They're so comfortable though! You try them on. You'll love them too! Look at all of those exclamation points! See? I get too excited! Okay, enough about that. All I'm saying is that I don't want to be addicted! I just want to update regularly. I wouldn't want any of my fans to feel neglected. I know they rely on me! ha

Back to my blog....I have to get more serious about this. So, I was inspired by my friend, Gladys, today. (p.s. her name is Lauren for real. I'm the only who calls her Gladys - long story) She created a blog not too long ago, and I looked at it for the first time tonight. Let me tell you, she's good at what she does, but you judge for yourself. Okay, she inspired me. I'm doing it. I decided my blog title should be LittleBlueAnchor because that is how I've decided to sign all of my crafts! Everything I make will not be "signed". Instead, I decided to paint a little blue anchor in one of the corners or something. I really like it! Hopefully you do too? Yes or no?

Okay, that's enough for one night I think.

I will be back with more hopefully tomorrow!

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Cameron